so it's now almost 5 months since my last post and i still don't know the reason you came into my life. nothing is going on between us anymore so it obviously wasn't for the purpose of a relationship.. and you aren't a good friend, so it wasn't for friendship. maybe it was just to torture me, or break me, or mess me up more. that's what it feels like.
i still like you, almost love you in a way.. and it kills me that you don't feel remotely the same. it makes me sad that you are fine just pushing me away without a second thought.
idk what to do. i know nothing will happen now, it's a certainty, but i still can't let you go. it's maddening. it's like.. my mind knows there is no point in anything anymore, but my heart is still pulling for you.. still wanting you to step up and save it from destruction.. silly heart. when will you ever learn.
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