So...my boyfriend works for the state and there is a big possibility he will be laid off in November. If he is laid off without finding another job like right then, he will be moving back to Vancouver and I will be moving back in with my parents. Obviously that would make everyone involved, except maybe his grandma, miserable. I unfortunately do not work full-time and would not be able to make the rent. As you can imagine we have been really stressed out, and it's not just recently it's been pretty much since we moved out. Money has become the big irritant in our relationship because I don't make enough to do more than pay off my credit card bills and buy some gas. I really don't want to have to do the long distance relationship thing, because it really took a toll on me emotionally, but maybe it could be a good thing. I mean he basically has a job down there if he wants it, and it would give me time to pay off my credit card debt and save up money without feeling pressured and without feeling bad because I can't contribute to rent and other things. It would be very hard to not be living with my boyfriend, and I really don't want it to come to that, but I'm just trying to see some kind of silver lining in this situation...so I won't go crazy.
On a similar note...I hate credit cards. Once these bad boys are paid off they are gone. It's really sad that I have credit card debt but if I didn't have them I wouldn't have gotten through school. It was so expensive, and you never knew what would come up that you would need money for and I couldn't just expect my parents to have $300 dollars right then so I could buy fabric and whatever else I needed. *sigh* all that money spent and I am not doing anything with my degree. I don't regret going to school, but I regret things about it, like I should've taken all of my general education classes at community college first...and I shouldn't have slacked off so bad that one quarter because it caused me to fail two classes because the finals for those classes went hand in hand...
On a different note...I'm totally addicted to so many shows right now. I freaking love big bang theory, modern family, cougar town and flash forward & I've been watching reruns of numbers...I like it. Shows that I'm still feeling but not loving include how I met your mother, and grey's anatomy. They have been sadly disappointing so far this season. Shows that I want to watch, but haven't/don't because they are on at the same time as shows I love...glee, gossip girl, vampire diaries, parks and recreations, the office and private practice & project runway (because I'm already in bed.)
Today has just been a weird kind of day. I've felt happy, sad, worried, bored, excited. I've been all over the board today. lol. I'm glad it's the weekend because I need to relax, of course knowing me I won't be able to and I will try to get too many things done and by the time the weekend is over I won't feel like I relaxed at all and probably won't have anything finished that I started. lol. But that's my life. :)
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