Random realization...

so high school was about 7 years ago...by the way I'm only awake this early on Saturday because my back hurts, I actually got up about 2 hours ago...and 7 years ago this would be the time I would usually be walking through my front door from partying.

wow.

I struggle trying to stay up till midnight now. lol. I have recently been in touch with my PIC, it's been quite awhile since we have hung out, and we talked about how back then if we wanted to meet up and hang out we would call and and be doing something 20 minutes later, and now we have to schedule time to see each other like weeks out. lol. it's just crazy how much things change. I know we all have to grow up but back then I figured I could still be doing the same things now that I was doing back without a problem. I'm sure the fact that I've been in a 5 year relationship drastically changed all of that, because I was single for the last half of high school and having my fun going out to clubs and flirting and obviously that doesn't appeal to you once you find yourself in a relationship...or at least it shouldn't. lol.

Sometimes I feel really old, and really lame. I feel like my party girl has completely disappeared, but then every once in awhile...she comes back and begs me to go out...which I usually don't, but it's kind of nice to know that I haven't lost her completely, and that someday I can let her loose on the world once again, hopefully sooner rather than later. :P (edit/ not at all meaning that I will be single, but that I will find a way to let some careless fun back into my life, because right now I'm too stressed and broke for it)