ugh..

so nothing went today as planned, but it's okay. I'm just stressed because of my lack of money. money is really starting to ruin my relationship and I feel like there isn't anything I can do about it, I'm stuck. What kind of job can I find when I work from noon to 5? I'm sorry but these are scary times and I'm not trying to get off of work late at night.

I'm really hoping my jewelry and stuff takes off so I can bring in some much needed extra money. Even if my hours went up I would only be making enough to pay my bills and my student loans. My life sucks. I'm miserable. I keep everything in and now I'm just falling apart...my life is falling apart, and I feel like there is nothing I can do. mostly I'm worried about my student loans. I have horrible credit so I can't consolidate my loans with one of the few options I have...I might as well just default on my loans since my credit sucks anyway... yeah right. my boyfriend would never marry me then. he's so concerned about money all the time and how my bad credit score will effect him.

I officially hate my life right now. :/