twilight soundtrack

totally obsessed with it. :) I haven't gotten my hands on it until recently and now that I have it I can't stop listening to it. need to put in my ipod.

I also need to burn some new cds for the drive down to vancouver...maybe. it depends on how my boyfriends grandma is doing.

so luckily I got paid enough at my job to pay for the voluntary forberance on my private education loans...again. I really wish I had the money to just pay the damn loan off...I hope this is the last time I will have to do it this way.

I hate my job. I always have to ask my boss questions and since she's still not in the office, I have to wait until she calls me back. it's really annoying. I've been waiting for her to call back since like 12:40 and it's 2:14. can't really get my job done when I have to wait... and of course still no cleaning supplies. awesome!

I am praying fiercely for this new job. I need it! I'm sending over my resume later today. I need to get together a list of references.

bleh. I want today to end. I'm lucky I got paid today because I have 5.34 left in my account after having to buy drano today. stupid hair clogged the drain and I can't get in under the stopper thing to get it out...lame. of all the things I need money for drain cleaner...not on the list.

I'm tired of being poor and barely being able to keep up with my bills. it's a horrid feeling that needs to go away. I have started to fill out some applications for other jobs just in case I don't get this one, but I'm praying that I do! it's like the perfect amount of money, perfect amount of hours plus I only have to commute 4 days and get a three day weekend every week. talk about awesome.

now...I just need to get it and I'm set. :)

things will be so much better if I get this job. I can even give my parents some money for my insurance, or car payment, or cell phone bill. (they are currently paying all of that for me)

I will have a lil bit of money left after paying all my bills. about 100 bucks but I'm sure it will be gone after I stock the fridge. man food is expensive. or I will give some to my boyfriend for whatever. rent. even though that's not even an eighth of the rent. see...ugh. I'm constantly thinking money, money, money and how to manage the little tiny bit that I get. it sucks. at least if I get this job I will be able to actually save some money. I'm sure my savings account will appreciate that since it's been empty for a long time.

anyway. I'm tired of talking about that crap. lets move on.

so I'm currently reading a catcher in the rye...it's lame. probably the worst book i've read in a long time...but I'm going to finish reading it so I can say I read it. than I'm going to read the grapes of wrath. I tried to read a steinbeck book before...east of eden or something and I stopped shortly after chapter 2. I will have to revisit that one as well, if I can find it.

I also need to read the bible. I have never read the whole thing. I am going to try the read through the bible in a year. it will be interesting. I think my thoughts on that will end up in my "finding my way back to god" blog, because I have enough stuff in my life to talk about here.

I'm totally going to go home and watch twilight tonight. lol. I keep seeing parts of the movie when I listen to the soundtrack. it's kind of weird. I tried to re-read twilight and was having a very hard time. I had to put it away. I don't know if I'm just past the books because the movies have been so good or what, but I'm finding bella in the book to be very annoying and boring. I want to punch her. lol.

*whew* the power went out for second while I was bloggin, but it saved it where I stopped. awesome.

yeah I'm getting kind of tired of reading kid/fantasy books. I think I'm going to go back to romance for awhile or thriller. I need to hit up all about books soon and get some new used books.

so since the boyfriend has been gone, I finished season 2, 3, and 4 of weeds. I cannot wait until season 5 comes out in january! I will have gossip girl season 2 finished some time this week. then I don't know what I will watch. maybe start over nip/tuck once I get those back from dru.

I think I am going to buy wii fit plus tomorrow. I've been wanting it for awhile and I'm finally committing myself to exercising. it will be nice to have it for the days when the weather is horrid, or days when I have a hard time getting out of bed let alone going to the gym. plus I heard it's fun. I don't know though. we will see. there are few other things I really want to buy myself...I will have to narrow it down to one and only buy the one this month. don't want to stretch myself too thin.

I'm really freaking bored right now. work is dead. i still have about an hour and 20 mins until I get to go home.

I have some present wrapping to do when I get home as well as some cleaning and cooking. fun times. I also need to possibly start to pack for the trip down.

you know what I'm looking forward to the most once I get this job? contacts. I cannot wait until I get to wear contacts again. lol. the whole glasses thing with the rain and cooking...not fun. speaking of cooking, I might have to pick up some cookie mix so I won't be heading down empty-handed... I don't really want to make them though but no gifts this year. too poor. maybe I will wait until after Christmas to get wii fit plus. I might get some money or something from my folks.

I do know that I am getting harry potter finally! so I might just do a harry potter weekend marathon if I don't go down. that would be nice.

If i had my own business, i would be closed from thursday until new years... unfortunately...i have to work christmas eve then the next week and new years eve. lame. well, I guess since I don't get paid for holidays maybe it's not so bad. dang. that is two days off of my paycheck this next pay period. crap. maybe I won't be spending anything. I think I will just be paying my bills and buying a tiny bit of food.

good times.

so of course after emailing the boyfriend the email of death...not really, but the "we need to talk" email, he hasn't mentioned it. and so it goes. that is how we do things apparently. we will talk once we are face to face. I am thinking things might be okay, but I just don't know how he feels about me anymore. we shall see. I'm trying not to dwell on the fact that I have no idea what is going through his mind because it will drive me crazy. hence, all the dvd watching. lol.

I am totally not in the Christmas spirit this year. it has finally evaded me. I think it was fading last year but it's definitly not here now. I love Christmas, but not this year. I think money is an issue plus all the family issues...boyfriend issues. it's just not a jolly time in my life right now. I'm kind of sad that I'm not in the mood for Christmas. :(

okay so my favorite songs to listen to at the moment:

flightless bird/american mouth - iron and wine
eye's on fire - blue foundation
full moon- the black ghosts
(yes, they are on the twilight soundtrack, that is all I'm listening to today)

okay this is ridiciously long so I'm done. lol.