wow.

I don't even know what to think anymore.

at this point in time, right now, I feel like I could care less if all was said and done.

but I know tomorrow I will feel differently.

I just wish I knew what was going through his head. what he was feeling.

he completely removed his relationship status...at least it didn't change to single, but this seems just as bad.

he wouldn't really have me come down for christmas if he was going to break up with me would he? I mean that just seems cruel...and I know at times he can be mean...but not like this.

I just need clarification on where we stand because it's driving me nuts. I have to wait at least a day maybe more depending on when he feels like talking about it.

*sigh*

why does love have to get so complicated? why can't it just be simple? why does life have to get in the way and ruin things? it doesn't seem fair.

I think I need a drink.